You do not know what I want.
I was thrusted into the hope
That you would bring me solace.
A break
A light
That I could follow
I know you are here to help me
Yet I know you are finished
You are done
I do not want your help no longer
This feels wrong
That is a scary thing to admit
You have guided me
Motivated me
Into something that I now realize
I do not want to be
Not what I believe
The quiet has been beneficial
The silence has calmed the noise
I can’t hear you now
I can hear my own voice
I can hear my thoughts
Your noise masked my own poison
My self-sabotage
However I have chosen
I need to hear the devil on my shoulder
I need to be the one to resist
I need to face my own demons
You cannot do this
I am selfish
I understand that
Right now I need to be.
The fog has finally cleared
Revealed
That there are many paths I can take.
Many wounds to be healed
Let me think.
Let me do.
Let me be.
Only me